darin_goat_gruff

Sun, 06 Feb 2005 23:20:49 GMT

You Are 30 Years Old

30

Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe.

13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world.

20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences.

30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more!

40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

What Age Do You Act?

What The Bleep Do We Know???

Sun, 26 Dec 2004 15:59:40 GMT

Last night Rebecca and I went to go see the film " What The Bleep Do We Know " at Tinstletown. Before I talk too much about the movie and my thoughts, I would like to issue a warning, the acting aside from the scientists, I perceived to be on the sub par level. As for my thoughts, lately I have been in the mode of thinking more about the conscience and its relationship to the unconscious. Currently I am reading "modern man in search of a soul" by Carl Jung. I am only slightly into this book but it has talked about psychotherapy, dream interpretation, and the importance of the unconscious mind. Before this I was reading NLP, and this touched on the usage of linguistics to communicate effectively with others who have there own perceptions of reality, and no concept of your reality. Then Robert Anton Wilson and the concept of E prime. The usage of "is" to describe a certain state, and trying to apply it to a certain collectivity. With quantum physics and its relationship to NLP and E Prime, it creates a universe with unlimited opportunity, and uncertainty. It shows us our common relations on a molecular level. Bryan I do believe we are in amidst of a new awakening, and new renaissance, both spiritually intellectually and economically. Thank you for helping open the door.

Months

Wed, 10 Nov 2004 03:34:57 GMT

I am reading Stephen Hawking... Rebecca is radcore... work is endless.... Eliott is a treasure

Fri, 20 Aug 2004 04:31:28 GMT

You're Avante Garde Indie. You listen to abstract
music like free-jazz and Krautrock. You drink
too much coffee and you scare the fuck out of
the rest of us. We're afraid to call you
pretentious because we know that we all just
don't get it. There are few of you out there,
and most of you will probably die soon.

You Know Yer Indie. Let's Sub-Categorize.
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Lego Block

Mon, 09 Aug 2004 04:18:06 GMT

This is a song I am currently working on...

A Straighten to my back
Pop then crackle as I snap my spine into place
A deep breath followed by a yawn
the after effects of a evening states its case
eyes appear blackened
a routine consistent of lack of rest
a gulp of coffee
the scent lingers on my breath
is it all my imagination
or does my dependence never seems to relent
currently old news appears front page
more of the same litters my current events
so whats new aquaintance might ask
same old, just trying to survive
the part of which I chose to exclude
with every year a part of me dies
it is not so much ambition
cause there is always consienceness to my dreams
setting is set upon sea level
exclusion of up in the clouds, unfamiliarity seen
when you are promised the world
it is rather difficult to achieve the expected
and when you receive a smaller slice
you can not help but feel neglected
so with a swelling of my credit
strive to reach a new social belonging
upon the impulse and fulfillment
material utopia and the construction I am undergoing
but with building an image
we go back to the demolition of a skyscraper
and you can view the emptiness
the after effects are a monstrous crater
the quest from a fire within
and a crusade to make insanity coherent and sane
or preservation against all odds
my path my reroute to remain

It is the luck of the draw
instead draw straws for luck
the variance of outcomes
either rebuilding or I de-construct
the material not set in stone
so it unlikely I will use rock
add some color to my life
as i place rows of blue and green lego blocks

Never Seen The Movie

Mon, 09 Aug 2004 01:43:25 GMT

I am Dr. Herbert West, from "Reanimator."
I'm right. You're wrong.

Which Random Cult Movie Character are you?
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2 Months

Thu, 05 Aug 2004 03:37:07 GMT

Its been well over two months since i had the slightest thought of even updating this damn thing. So here we go , I have decided just to fill this with random thoughts and not mention any events that have happened.

1. Children grow up quickly, and they are the sweetest most beautiful creatures ever.
2. No matter which way you slice it, your piece of pie always seems smaller then someone else.
3. The Chads Hate Us and will call us homosexual whenever they get the chance.
4. Being Lazy and a Sloth are defiantly a flaw.
5. Home is where the heart is.
6. Why is there a pop culture? Why do i not know what it is?
7. I have blinders on when I walk into relationships.
8. Stomach aches come natural as you age.
9. 6:40 is awfully early in the AM....
10. My fridge always looks empty..

Take these as you will.....

The Rise and Fall of Sleeping Inism

Sun, 23 May 2004 16:11:37 GMT

Well I have been noticing a new trend with myself. I am totally unable to sleep in past the time of 9:30am. My body has taken a work schedule and applied it to my lovely weekends. Needless to say my days have been far more productive than if I would have woken up at noon.

Yesterday was overall pleasant in the way that nothing really unexpected or exciting happened. I woke up early as I mentioned in the above paragraph. Then I was to meet my old roommate who I had not seen or heard from in months to give him some mail. Well on the way up there I run into just lots of people I know. First I saw that Roger was working so I went in and said "hello". We conversed for a little while and then I had to leave cause he had customers. Then no more then 1 minute later I run into Cody and Kathy. Cody's mother had opened a restaurant 3 doors down from rogers work. I also go to see Cody's 4 month old daughter for the first time. She is so chubby and cute you could not help but smile. Then I met up with Mike at Starbucks. We actually talked for like 35 minutes. Just catching up with one another, and just bouncing ideas back and forth. It is kinda strange we never really bonded like that when we lived together, and it took separation and my new outlook for that to occur.

Then I had lunch with my Mom. I told her my stories and the decision i had made to go straight edge. Then she asked what that was and I explained it to her over a few moments. She then gave me a hug and kissed me on the cheek and told me she was proud of me. It felt good too hear from her. Anyway so my brother also joined us for lunch and we went to Ricky's Restuarant. I have to say they have a huge menu, with actually a pretty good vegetarian selection.

Finally my buddy Brian came over and we did some computer stuff and her gave me a slew of sweet movies and spoken word lectures. We then watched Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind. We both talked about it after and I still really like the movie. We then went down to Vancouver just for kicks and at Surrey Central we meet one of Brian's friends named Boz. He is a actor and is on his way to a Bosnian Group. So he was hilarious and the conversation between the 3 of us goes on forever it seems. Then In Vancouver the only thing to note is a guy tried to pick a fight with us out front of the 7 11. He was acting macho alright, and I was very scared. I basically shit my pants, but thats not the truth. He was acting macho cause i guess to show off to this girl. Its funny when guys get territorial how they act like untrained puppies.

The Rise and Fall of Sleeping Inism

Sun, 23 May 2004 16:10:49 GMT

Well I have been noticing a new trend with myself. I am totally unable to sleep in past the time of 9:30am. My body has taken a work schedule and applied it to my lovely weekends. Needless to say my days have been far more productive than if I would have woken u at noon.

Yesterday was overall pleasant in the way that nothing really unexpected or exciting happened. I woke up early as I mentioned in the above paragraph. Then I was to meet my old roommate who I had not seen or heard from in months to give him some mail. Well on the way up there I run into just lots of people I know. First I saw that Roger was working so I went in and said "hello". We conversed for a little while and then I had to leave cause he had customers. Then no more then 1 minute later I run into Cody and Kathy. Cody's mother had opened a restaurant 3 doors down from rogers work. I also go to see Cody's 4 month old daughter for the first time. She is so chubby and cute you could not help but smile. Then I met up with Mike at Starbucks. We actually talked for like 35 minutes. Just catching up with one another, and just bouncing ideas back and forth. It is kinda strange we never really bonded like that when we lived together, and it took separation and my new outlook for that to occur.

Then I had lunch with my Mom. I told her my stories and the decision i had made to go straight edge. Then she asked what that was and I explained it to her over a few moments. She then gave me a hug and kissed me on the cheek and told me she was proud of me. It felt good too hear from her. Anyway so my brother also joined us for lunch and we went to Ricky's Restuarant. I have to say they have a huge menu, with actually a pretty good vegetarian selection.

Finally my buddy Brian came over and we did some computer stuff and her gave me a slew of sweet movies and spoken word lectures. We then watched Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind. We both talked about it after and I still really like the movie. We then went down to Vancouver just for kicks and at Surrey Central we meet one of Brian's friends named Boz. He is a actor and is on his way to a Bosnian Group. So he was hilarious and the conversation between the 3 of us goes on forever it seems. Then In Vancouver the only thing to note is a guy tried to pick a fight with us out front of the 7 11. He was acting macho alright, and I was very scared. I basically shit my pants, but thats not the truth. He was acting macho cause i guess to show off to this girl. Its funny when guys get territorial how they act like untrained puppies.

New Outlook

Fri, 21 May 2004 05:10:02 GMT

Well I have defeated my greatest foe too this date.. The evil sasser worm came from the cyber world of beatlejuice and infected my damn computer. Then to make this even better I was given poor information about reformatting my system. So for the past month or so my computer has just sat around ding absolutely nothing at all. Aside from the I have a new outlook on things...

I was kinda depressed i guess over the weekend.. Friday night left me totally jaded. Yeah well and i just did not have much fun on saturday either I dunno. So I am straight edge again, much to the dismay and horror of my brother. I feel this stability will will keep me more level headed. I have been learning quite a bit as of late I am interested in this participatory ecoonomics collective my friend showed me... So I am looking further into that. I have been reading and writing again also...So things are getting sunny again..

Tue, 06 Apr 2004 05:13:09 GMT

Today was really awful.
I got out of bed really early because I had terrible stomach cramps.

I feel unusual because my antidepressants are making me hairy.

I'm so hardcore. Me and Buzz went to the mall today, and I stole a whole heap of stuff. I got a Good Charlotte CD, a couple of DVDs and some new boots. Buzz got caught, but he fought his way out, and then we stole some lady's car and smashed it into a phone booth.

Last night I had to masturbate twenty times. I'm so horny. Click here to see my website.

I want to tell the world Pokemon

I am really annoyed with those assholes at _are_you_hotter_than_us_?, because I am so much cuter than them, and those photos don't do me justice. They can't reject me, so I'm starting my own rating community. Click here to join (the first five applicants are automatically accepted).

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Life After God!

Sat, 03 Apr 2004 18:11:05 GMT

So I am thinking about life.... just in general, and then I read this book by Douglas Coupland "Life After God". It has a collection of stories just about spiritual life amoung people raised without religion.

So anyway I start to take things literally just wayside with the thoughts that have been randomly boating around in my head. I have sorta felt I have been sleeping for the last few years... like I have been wasting opportunities and what the future has in store for me is a equally crappy job to the one I have now... or heaven forbid and even more emotional straining job.

Then I think of all the goals and ambitions I had when i first made my exit into the real world form high school. Did i ever dream of wanting to be an accountant... No..... That was just me settling on something practical. My real goal was I wanted to be a weather man.. inspired by the ramblings of Norm Growman on the radio. That goal or dream quickly was set asunder with the fact it was not set in stone or secure.

I look back at how I used to be and I see myself now and I have grown largely as a person... but now I need more ambition and drive. So I guess knowledge is going to be key for me for awhile I am going to just start learning more stuff instead of just getting sauced, and I am gonna complete my schooling. So I am not the gobber taking the orders, but the fuck making them.

SunSpots...

Thu, 01 Apr 2004 05:08:16 GMT

Well the last 2 days have actually been quite pleasant. Work has been fine, i guess... very unrewarding but it pays the bills and makes it so i am not some homeless guy. Yesterday Becky and I went so see Eternal Sunshine. I really enjoyed the movie. I feel I am going to have to buy this DVD when it comes out.

It made me think a wee bit about when you are in a relationship how you may spend countless hours with someone and really never know them.. Either cause you didn't try and know them, or there was no effort. It also made me think about seizing the moment and just not letting opportunity pass you by. Memories are special and are something that you can take with you everywhere.... Blah Blah Blah

I had a rad time chilling with Rebecca... she is a wicked lass...

I saw my brother from vancouver today... he returned into my life looking more Jeremy then ever...

Peace Rally

Sun, 21 Mar 2004 16:08:31 GMT

So yesterday was an adventure of sorts. I went to the peace rally downtown and the night before i got really drunk and slept thru my alarm. I did was late and i missed the bus I was supposed to catch with grove people. So I got my shit together and met up with Rebecca at Scott Road station.. we went to a ghetto rally at the art gallery... We found Tim there and then Rebbecca went to a friends wedding...

So Tim and I decided to hoof it and after a slew of bad directions we found where the people were speaking. We had to wait thru a slew of un-entertaining speakers. until Noam Chomsky came on. His speech was par at best, you can tell he saves his good shit for an audience that pays.. The anarchist kids there were my favorite..

So after that Tim and Mike and myself had cheap pizza, and hung out at the cambie till about 8pm and then i decided I had to go home.. Overall a good day... Thumbs up to that!!!

The day previous I saw Jenbots for the first time in ages.... good times yet again, her friends that we met up with were snobs... Whatever I have nice glass and you do not...Blahhh

Every So often

Thu, 18 Mar 2004 07:25:32 GMT

I feel like i should update this... and state to my livejournal masses what my life is really like. I have heard stories about every thing from todd bertuzzi to Sadam posted on one of these things.... So for all of you who know who I am what Am I up Too...

Well job has become a inconvenience in the middle of the weekend making my life far more livable and it gives me a chance to ditch my so called friends...Groat thanks for that inspiration... I only wish I could fee so married and tied down to a person at such a young age....... where do we go from here? Dude we gotta go home....
To drink with the family? Fuck that I will Drink alone...

i feel blank, I feel unsure of everything going on....on a daily baisis...Work...Eat.. but the Shit is all I look forward tooo..... But what is our life....... what we make of it

Or just a mound of shit we mold......

Well Whats new

Wed, 17 Mar 2004 06:09:28 GMT

Well I am on prescription drugs.... woo hooo... I saw mystic River... i am reading a rad book... and I am gonna go to bed... Expect a full update tomorrow!!

Thu, 12 Feb 2004 14:43:43 GMT

There is so much I have to say, I guess I am going to have to update soon.

Parenting Course

Sat, 31 Jan 2004 17:28:37 GMT

I start my parenting course today, I think it is gonna be wicked. It is six weeks long and i do not know exactly what will be covered but it should informative none the less. It is supposed to be interactive and we learn by doing, so I should be super style after that.

My brother and I found a place, its in walnut grove. Its just up the street from the chevron, so it is really close to my brothers work. The place is a beautiful basement suite. It has cable, washer and dryer, as well as hardwood floors.... ehhhhh... so excited

First Update in Ages....

Sun, 18 Jan 2004 18:31:24 GMT

So the Ice Ages have ended and i have decided to make a post. I really have not had the urge to use this thing much. Today I am gonna see Elliott at my place and i am pretty excited about that. Rosie is also going to meet him today and i think that this is gonna be a pretty good visit. It will be wicked to see him somewhere other then a coffee house. I got him a stuffed eeore toy, its like a soft fabric. I hope he likes it, but if not i can always return it.

Aside from that this weekend has been ok. On Friday I went to fort pub and i drank quite a bit. Yesterday Rosie went to the hockey game, I chilled at home and then met up with her after the game..

Black without the pigment

Sun, 18 Jan 2004 18:25:23 GMT

Which 1990's Subculture Do You Belong To?

[Another Quiz by Kris
@ couplandesque.net]

This just gives me even more proof that denis and I were african, then we were brought here and were the victims of an evil science experiment. This experiment changed our color but not our soul.

Fri, 26 Dec 2003 21:04:39 GMT

Congratulations! You're Gandalf!

Which Lord of the Rings character and personality problem are you?
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The Weekend That Was!!

Mon, 15 Dec 2003 03:09:23 GMT

Well the weekend is all but over. I had a good time overall. Rosie gets to go to the canucks game tonight, it is a pay per view game so unless i go to a pub I will be unable to watch it. She is really excited they have been counting down the time, so i hope they have fun.

Friday was a real kinda lengthy day at work. Basically the network fucked up this one whole data base so i had to re-enter data from days before. So i was kinda shocked when that first happened, but i was able to coupe. On friday night jason came by and picked me up and we went to fort pub, had a few wobbly pops and good conversations with many friends. Then to dennys for a soda pop, and some conversation with jessie and alesha.(I adore you guys)

Saturday I went t my grandpa's wake, it was a calming ending to a god well lived life. Aside from that Rosie and I watched old school and empire records. I have not seen empire records in ages. I also did some writing, which turned out quite well..

Death

Tue, 09 Dec 2003 15:09:32 GMT

I have been crying all mourning off and on. I am never prepared fr this kind of thing. My grandfather "pepe" passed away last night. I found out this mourning like a few minutes before i was to leave for work. There is no way i can work like this I would just be sent home. I am emotional, and i have tears of a clown as smokey robinson says. I feel sorry for denis, he had to work all night knowing. I dunno how he delt. What makes things worse is as he was slipping away there is nothing anyone could do to help him, but my grandma said it was his time.

Upon Ponderance

Fri, 05 Dec 2003 02:19:36 GMT

Upon Ponderance
taken in a minute or a time frame
to that a swiftness
as impulses hit against the brain

Within an instant
I feel almost starstruck
speech to thoughts
and how my mind feels stuck
or trapped
between this rock and a hard place
2 questions to ask
and what side of my face
love and hate
written to the left and to the right
a flip of a coin
the difference between black and white
which way my mind wanders
and a view thru the minds eye
imagery or pictures
as i journey down this line
with a fineness
i have walked away from the edge
and a difference of mind frame
i look straight ahead
but narrow
and societies look through this scope
with a diversification
and an open head for hope
but our lady
may cry for peace
sound waves like havoc
radiate from the streets
saw in an oil view abstract
how can i differ
the fiction from the fact

Canucks Game!!!!

Fri, 05 Dec 2003 02:10:44 GMT

Well i am at school again, and i really do not wanna be here. Once again i feel like shit. I had a fucking stupid day at work. First i slept thru my alarm, i have no clue how it happened but i was out like a light. Then the fucking network at work i finally got to work. It was litterally retarded, then the computer accounting software database would not open. RAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!! Now i have no clue what is going on with my marketing project. Fuck it!!
To make this feeling more bitter i was offered a free ticket to the canucks game tonight and now i can go. BOOO

More on the postive side jonny and I wrote a song, its about mythical figues, we were bothe pretty stoned so i think it is wicked. I saw rosie last night she had to go to work early to make pancakes for christians.. Fun times...

I get to go to a party at G box's house... NBK like a motherfucker..